ThE LiFe oF MiNe.. ThE JourNey I TaKe

2012-02-03T23:21:00.002+08:00

Happy 6th Month baby!

This is an important milestone to me. It reminds me of what happened 6months ago and how it has brought me to who I am today, the lucky guy with the pretty girl. Sometimes when I drift off into space and start thinking about the past, I never imagined myself the way it has turned out to be. Looking at our reflection in the train earlier on, I see the old me staring at a similar couple in the past, and wishing that I'd get a girl that beautiful to love me.

And how sweet it was when you came in today with a big bag of presents all for me. Seriously, there's nothing more I could ask for. I am so going to read those notes over and over again.

You're insecure, don't know what for.

You're turning heads when you walk through that door

There is really absolutely no reason for you to feel insecure. Its like worrying that Crystal would leave me for another owner. Its not going to happen. However, there are and will be times where it appears to be likely, those are moments where you have to trust me completely and rmb these words, that there is no reason to feel insecure. I never want to hurt you.

Baby you light up my world like nobody else!

I love you!

2012-02-01T23:34:00.000+08:00

Its one of occasional part of the year where things get really busy and occupied. It is especially during such times, when I am so thankful that I have an understanding girlfriend who puts up with my never ending stream of activities & appointments and who most importantly, allows me to look forward daily without fail, to end the day regardless of how much stress or activities that I went through earlier, in a perfect manner. Via a phone call.

It is such times when I require so much support, and you are there to provide them. This does not happen in all relationship cases in reality and I'm glad you are not one of them. I appreciate it.

P.S. I love you

2012-01-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

Wahahaha! Its such a waste if you throw that yogurt coated top away!!!

2012-01-30T22:28:00.002+08:00

A perfect diagram to describe how much I love you.

What a day!

Went to school for my 0830 - 1030 lesson before heading home and got directly to studying all the way till 10pm. I am mentally exhausted. On the bright side, I covered everything there is to cover. Now all thats left is to practice past year papers which I shall get to them tmr night.

Baby, I miss you.

I unlocked my phone countless times throughout the day and scrolled through my photo gallery just so I could see you at least 3 times (lock screen, home screen and photo). It certainly helped a great deal in motivating me to study.

Honestly, it doesn't matter how you change physically. I don't think I can ever stop loving you. Dark tanned skin? Why not? Match me. Fair skin? Also can! Like how you are now.

Yup, and thanks to you, my world has became a much brighter, prettier and happier place!

Unfortunately, I can't stop teasing you sometimes. You're too cute!

Love you baby girl!

2012-01-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

Thats what I see after so much readings done.

3-4 more chapters to go!

2012-01-29T21:56:00.002+08:00

By me. Alot. All the time. Forever and ever.

I like it when I go down to fetch you up to my place, and you're walking towards me from the distance. It never fails to awe me, and that half a minute or so of just staring as you draw closer, reminds me how lucky I am, to have such a gorgeous girl like you.

Yup, The upcoming week is going to be so busy! Don't even have time to open my ang pows. And I'm honestly not looking forward to tmr's intensive reading. Not being able to see you for so many days and already saying that I miss you would be a severe understatement. Well, at least I'm assured that I have you by my side for decades to come right?

Love you baby girl!

2012-01-25T00:23:00.000+08:00

Reminiscent of the past

2012-01-24T23:11:00.002+08:00

My best decision I've made in my life so far, was to decide to go after you and not stop till I've succeeded. Up till now, I have absolutely no regrets and am anticipating our future together!

I can totally feel it. Feel us constantly growing even closer. Just when I thought we've hit the ultimate barrier of love at our current stage, where we've max out who we are as a couple, you never fail to show me more, to make me feel even more.

Today, I met the whole of your extended family and boy do I feel so happy within. Its nice to hear your aunts calling my name and them talking about us. Even more when your cousins are so friendly and I guess I felt this... A feeling... that I belong. And that feeling, cannot be described in words.

Thank you baby for inviting me today. I think I couldn't conceal my happiness towards the end and ended up hugging you so much for no apparent reason.

Are you sure you're ready for what comes along with this that you're bringing me into? A life where I can never stop loving you and never letting you go. If you are, then please continue! :)

Love you so much!

2012-01-22T12:27:00.000+08:00

2012-01-22T02:01:00.002+08:00

Look what came in the mail!

At first, I didn't expect her to make it in time to meet the 3 guys. I mean, somehow deep down, I really wanted her to meet them esp after talking about them so much, not to mention her anticipation to meet them. But since she ends work at around 10.30pm plus the need to drop by xy's house to pick up her long awaited bag and shoes first before heading over, I figured we would be done by the time she reached. Who knows, she made it! I was really happy!

Supper was good though slightly ex. I shall just stick to prata and not order naan next time. Went back and she was eager to check the letter box, wanting to make sure that her CNY card to my parents have arrived. Never did I expect that another letter would be in there, addressed to me. A pleasant surprise it is.

Thanks baby! I love you!

Happy is to think of you everyday!

2012-01-19T00:20:00.002+08:00

I trust you!

Only in the middle of week 2 and I'm starting to mug for tests. These tests are so not easy but the goal of going down this path is way too attractive to give up.

Secured SA and GL positions for the various FOC camps and attending the meetings make me so excited about the near future! wheee!

Managed to meet baby today. And she's as adorable as ever. I'm appreciating our dates as the frequency of them occurring decreases exponentially. The joy of meeting and the reluctance to leave is amplified. Well, I can't say this is something new when by right, this is the norm. We just got so used to the luxury of time when the holiday period permits us from meeting so frequently. Oh well. sucks that its over.

Looking forward to meeting her family next week! In the meantime, please don't pinch yourself hor!

Too tired liao. Brain dead. Thats all for now.

Good night!

2012-01-14T23:56:00.002+08:00

All these moments that form memories of every passing day we spent together. Beautiful lovely moments. I honestly don't mind reliving them, but at the same time, I'm excited about what the future holds for the both of us.

Quite alot of things planned out for the next few weeks. School, CNY, the various reunion dinners, gatherings and visitations, studying for the Prudential test, IHG etc.

Speaking of IHG, well, I hope the photographers will be able to catch some nice 'in the moment' kind of photos with me in it. The kind of natural shot of the subject concentrating or in some particular action like diving etc. I've captured so many of such moments of others, sometimes I really wish I have some of my own. Oh well.

Looking forward to seeing my baby again!

Missing her already! :(

2012-01-13T09:23:00.002+08:00

I know it was just yesterday that I last saw you. But yesterday seems so very far away! Part of me is looking forward to completing this semester asap. I mean its like a mere 4 months right?! Afterwhich I can concentrate on earning some money. But on the other hand, starting from next week, I'm going to be permanently base in school throughout the week. Which means missing her more.

Yup, your opinions matter ALOT. I have to emphasize on the ALOT because it really is ALOT. In fact, not just your opinions, but your actions, mood and non verbal communication plays a big role as well.

Very psyched about the Tioman trip! Can't wait! Beach vacation is something I adore so much and to partake in it with good friends and my baby girl is the best I could ever ask for.

Looking forward to tmr's date!

Love ya!

2012-01-11T21:48:00.002+08:00

After today, I've decided to follow my heart, not just in love, but in life.

I've made a decision. A life decision and I have to see it through. My brain and external factors tell me that success doesn't come so easily, but my heart is confident that this is my path. I shall work hard!

As for love, I've already been following my heart and look where thats brought me. Blissfulness. In fact, if this plan works out, I'll be walking down the aisle in less than 5 years time! <3

I can't wait!

2012-01-10T16:04:00.002+08:00

I understand why your mum would say such a thing. From her perspective, you make the effort to come my house and school to find me, not to mention the time on the phone and when you are at home working on our black book. All seems like so much investment on your side, but on mine? Showing up just a couple of times and receiving all the love and kisses in the pictures.

Truth is, I've still not completely opened up to your family despite the going on a week long trip with them. It doesn't usually take this long for me to open up but I guess because these are important people and I'm just afraid that my actual self would make a bad impression.

Despite all these, it heartens me to know that you trust and believe in me that I do put in sufficient effort.

Whether you're able to take it or not in the event of a break up is of no significant factor, for thats akin to preparing for winter in Singapore. Sure you can arm yourself with winter jacket and gloves, but will you ever need it in this lifetime? I'll do my best to make sure it doesn't.

2012-01-09T22:44:00.002+08:00

At the end of the day, I conclude that we are very much meant for each other, and are progressing onwards!

Ok and so I manage to extend this consecutive streak for one more day! Honestly, I just want to spend time with you. I need you more than you realize. All your little gestures of love, care and concern never goes unnoticed.

I enjoyed the day out today. The nice cosy cafe that made us feel like some VIP sitting on that big couch with the only waitress serving us the only customers. How you sneakily tried to read my SMSes and how we ate so much that we couldn't finish the pancakes.

Oh boy, all this time together is just heavenly. Esp the last part where you helped me pack. It's like I feel so loved. And the best feeling in the world is to be loved by the person you love.

2012-01-07T16:10:00.002+08:00

I'm so going to miss this!

Its heartwarming to know that everyday just gets better. I feel us getting stronger and stronger. Honestly, I'm so not good at expressing through words, thats probably why my posts are so short compared to yours.

Second last day before school resumes. I can so predict what my thoughts would be like, for every place has a memory thats shared with you in it.

Can B, where you passed me that $10 during my very first orientation camp, a time when you barely know me.

Nanyang Audi, where I came for your convocation with a bouquet of flowers, we weren't together yet.

The field beside hall 7, where you sat there with your OG watching us freshies during hall camp.

Hall, where you came to find me numerous times throughout the semester.

HSS, where you brought me through that shortcut which included some steep slope via student services centre when I had to go for that 1hr lesson on Thursday.

And the numerous canteens, shuttle buses and walkways that we spent together during the last semester.

Oh and did I mention, I love how you yawn wide open and smile sheepishly when you realized that I was watching.

Love ya adorable girl! :)

2012-01-04T17:10:00.002+08:00

Can you accept this?

Its so nice to read such a sweet post from you, knowing full well that you meant every single word that is written there. I guess there are bound to be downs and ugly parts in every relationship. But the important thing is that we rebound from such periods and learn something out of it. That being said, after reading your post, I'm kinda glad the last few days happened the way it did.

Shall be utilizing this last week to spend time with her. And maybe part of next week too. Really love my bed so much that I find it quite hard to move back to hall. Next semester is going to be full of activities. Already getting notifications for preparation of the next FOC. Time management will be essential esp when I have to balance studies, love, friends and sch activities. Not to mention my attempt to keep fit and exercise at least once a week.

Well, I guess this is life, hitting the peaks of stressful periods, followed by a short siesta month, and slowly rising up the curve of stress towards the peak again. Gonna be needing much support and focus.

Please please please grant me at least one elective!

Looking forward to seeing my baby girl tmr. Not to mention Friday!

2012-01-02T22:09:00.002+08:00

Physically together that is... Especially after school resumes.

Logged into edveNTUre and I saw the new modules in place of the old ones. SIAN! Just a few more days to the end of this week. Well, to sum it up, I did fully utilize this break. Spending quality time with friends, family and her. Not to mention traveling abroad, partying, mahjonging, etc

Come to think of it, Macau seems so long ago.

I know you never want to hurt me, and I appreciate the amount of effort you put in to make us work too. There are bound to be times when we're down and ready to snap at anything that comes our way. I promise to be more understanding during such times.

And especially when the near future doesn't look very bright in terms of spending time with each other, I assure you, that such times will not be easy, but definitely worth it.

Loving you has became a part of me. Deeply embedded. There's no turning back.

2012-01-01T09:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

In retrospection of the year 2011, I completed my NS liability, worked at Adam Khoo, travelled to USA, met a girl, asked her to be my girlfriend, started University life, and completed a semester. Lost alot of weight this year probably due to multiple reasons which includes a whole month in America, stopped working out, exams stress, smaller meal portions in school etc.

Last year was the only year that I didn't make any resolutions. Here's mine for this year.

2012 NEW YEAR RESOLUTION

1) Treasure the little things

I admit that I am very blessed in my life. But I take many of these for granted. Little things from friendly gestures to presents and appreciation, and what I have been given in life, I should be thankful and treasure them.

2) A good year with Lynette Lee, maximize happiness and minimize sadness

I'm serious about this girl, and to make it work, I have to put in all my effort. Our 5th month is in 2 days. Honestly, I'm not even really hyped up about this new month as compared to when we first hit our first couple of months. Why? Cos this is going to go a long way, so what's a month when I'm looking at a lifetime of togetherness.

3) Donate Blood

Need to do this more often, and save lives!

4) GPA 4+

This next semester is challenging, but right now, I'm motivated and determined to score. Shall invest time and effort into increasing my GPA way above 4.

5) Travel

Got to leave the country at least once

2011-12-30T22:29:00.002+08:00

Every single time I think that this is the happiest most joyous day of my life cos of her, it gets better the next time we meet. (Of course there are exceptions on days where she decided to be a tomato. LOL!!! *winks*) Our honeymoon period never seem to end. Which is a good thing cos I don't want it to end. I shall stick to this belief, that it has, is, and will always gets better.

Just got a top for CNY. School's going to start in a couple of weeks. Super motivated to thrive thanks to multiple factors such as results, lynette, conversation with parents etc. Hope this motivation does not die down after school starts. JIA YOU ME!

I love my gf

2011-12-30T00:45:00.002+08:00

Imagine how surprised I was earlier today when I heard the door bell ring. Totally caught me off guard. I was like, 'HUH? Didn't she just good-morning text me about an hour ago?' This was followed shortly with, 'oh shit I look like crap now'.

Baby I'm sorry if I was occupied with the computer. Just wanted to upload the pictures so that I could upload the next batch tmr without any congestion and at the same time transfer the 3 mp3 into my iPhone. I felt so comfortable and happy the whole time though, knowing that you were just by my side.

We need to take some 'photo-shoot' pictures soon. I like that picture in your second post, bedroom setting. But will it be too intimate to be uploaded into Facebook?

Gonna go sleep now and wake up to seeing you tmr!

2011-12-27T23:11:00.002+08:00

Probably something that I've told you countless times, because thats how much it really means to me.

I could really use a massage right now. After 5-6 hours of intense work on the computer. Tmr is yet another 3 hours of gaming on the computer. Haha! I wonder what would our lives be without the computer...

Caught New Year's Eve in a freezing theatre. I'm kinda inspired to follow the movie and kiss at midnight. But will that be weird in Singapore? Hmmm...

I'm trying very hard. I honestly don't know how. This monthly thing feels like anything I say would lead to a quarrel, and I just want to disappear when we're on that line cos this on the verge of exploding you appears so unstable and fragile that I don't dare to make any moves except to retreat.

Is it normal to feel this way? To fear?

2011-12-26T08:44:00.002+08:00

Had quite a great Christmas. A couple more parties coming up this week!

Dug out my twister mat and a couple of Santa hats for last night's Christmas gathering. The last time I used these was last year's Christmas! Time flies! Within one year, so many things happened! No more mundane NS life, new school term, new friends (old onces included too), and of course, new girl! :)

The weather has been great the last few days. Its the coldest Singapore can get, hence depicting a nice wintery Christmas.

Plans for today, head over to her hse, lose in mahjong, and spend time with her. No complaints. I choose luck in love over luck in mahjong anytime!

Just 2 more weeks to school reopening

Noooooooo!

2011-12-25T00:10:00.002+08:00

Our first Christmas together. Many many more to come.

This Christmas is especially meaningful to me, especially how it started. On the eve of Christmas, I had a wonderful conversation with my parents and many good news came out of it. It means alot when I know that my parents are supportive with my doings and it feels so much like they view her as already part of the family. Proudly proclaiming that this beautiful lady is my girlfriend.

I'd like to see it as yet another big step forward in our journey together as a couple. A terrific Christmas and a pre 5th month present. Hope the crystals I gave you grows to its maximum capacity, and lasting forever!

I love you! So happy that you like your presents!

2011-12-24T00:12:00.002+08:00

This picture reminds me of you. The wonderful memories at the zoo esp and the shot with the fake giraffe. Though sometimes I wonder whether you love the Ostrich as much cos I can recall more occasions of you waving frantically at the nonchalant Ostrich, one of the many things I find so adorable.

Honestly, I'm really looking forward to tmr. Apart from because its a festive season, it feels like ages since we had a date. The last one didn't count cos it was a hospital checkup and a lunch with family. And previously it was me in the hospital and you accompanying me. Hardly counts as a date. Come to think of it, the last official one was last Saturday where we caught MI3. ok with that being said, it actually doesn't sound quite far away right? Like less than a week. But it FEELS way more than that okay!

You know how your friends said that over time you would want to spend lesser time with each other. Well, its true to a certain extent. Ours have already decreased compared to how we initially started of. Just like how a fire start, the initial flames are massive, but over time, it dies down to a constant flame. I'm guessing we're at or near the constant flame stage now? I do feel really comfortable with our current communication level. Decreasing it to the extent like how your friend wanted to cease talking for a week can be rather detrimental to the relationship.

Marriage is the ultimate goal in a relationship, so if one cannot accept seeing, communicating, and/or being around with the other half at a frequency thats more than the usual for friends, then how are they going to survive marriage life? Enjoy the freedom first then miraculously adapt to living together upon getting marriage? I don't think that will work.

Therefore my point being, I'd like to maintain how we are right now. Its perfect. Just like it has been for me for the past almost 5 mths now. And its all thanks to my girl.

Loved, am in love, and loving you all the way baby! :)

2011-12-22T22:49:00.002+08:00

Its great to be alive and kicking! Being sick just makes me realize how fragile life is. I'm going to take the additional effort to stay healthy!

Baby had a not-so-nice morning before meeting me. I felt bad that I couldn't give her all my attention as she shared with me. But moving around, looking out for the bus and conversing with my mum top with the typo-prone iPhone keypad made it nearly impossible to give a meaningful reply. I know she's so irritated with herself for being late, and in that state, even the simplest of things could annoy the hell out of you. I wasn't upset at all. Not even the tiniest bit. I could totally understand why she was feeling that way, unlike others who claimed that the trip was unnecessary to begin with. I guess love does make you do things that you wouldn't normally do, so my conclusion, one who hasn't experienced love would be unable to comprehend the actions of those who are in love.

Luckily for her, she was meeting me after going through all that. (actually in the first place it happened cos she was meeting me la but thats besides the point lalala) Why do I find that slightly pouty annoyed face so adorable? Wanted to kiss you so badly when I first saw you but environment not very kissing-friendly hor. Anw so happy that you cheered up real soon!

Anw, technically speaking, I'm somewhere near the halfway mark of this semester break. Time flies! So much happened already, mainly Macau and hospital visits. Hopefully I'd be able to make that trip down to my god-grandma's place soon when baby's free.

2011-12-20T14:51:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA!

I have to be careful not to blindly send out texts intended for girlfriend

2011-12-20T14:44:00.002+08:00

The past few days was really quite sian for me. Had to cancel/postpone all my plans from Sunday night till today. Mahjong, JB trip, movie date, gatherings, LAN etc. Now I'm behind on my Xmas shopping and mum's bday present. haiz.

But one thing is for sure, I'm so thankful for her and my parents who were by my side the whole time. Felt the dread when she had to leave for home at 9pm, a whole hour past visiting hours. Just sitting there next to me, smiling away, brightens up my heart.

You say it takes alot to drag you away from me. Well, for me, its practically impossible to drag me away from you.

Love you baby

2011-12-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

Not just that. Just being around you is enough. Just like today. When I'm in my most vulnerable cui state. You came and stayed by my side.

I have the most awesome girlfriend ever!

Gonna go do what she says now and sleep so I can recover.

I love you!

2011-12-17T09:43:00.000+08:00

LOL

2011-12-17T09:34:00.002+08:00

Addicted

Thats what I am towards you.

Been doing alot of craving and complaining about my craving of her to her since yesterday. However, as I was in the bath earlier and having my daily train of thoughts, I realized, hey, whats there to fear or dread her return to normal daily working lifestyle? I have this girl for the rest of my life to come and I'm gonna keep it this way. Therefore, instead of dreading, I shall be appreciative of the wonderful time we had and are going to have for the consecutive days these 2 weeks.

btw, the personal flaws you mentioned about 5-6 mths ago, that I'd come to see in time to come after getting to know you better.

I still don't see them

2011-12-16T20:46:00.002+08:00

Eternity

Thats how long I'd want us to be in love if you ask me.

Just got back from a 5D3N trip to Macau, Zhuhai and Zhongshan early this morning. Landed around 6am. Slightly more than 12 hours ago and I'm feeling like its been ages since I last saw her. Uploading the pictures of the trip made it worse. Just finished sharing the pictures with my parents and I feel myself missing her so bad.

The trip had more pros than cons. The main con was my inability to fall asleep. I never had this problem before, in fact, I used to pride myself on being able to sleep anywhere anytime. But now its different. I had to lie for hours before drifting off, only to wake up at 7 plus in the morning, unable to fall back asleep. The agony!

However, when I compare this to the priceless amount of time spent together with her, the moments we shared, and the experience with the family, this little con is like a pea next to an elephant. In fact, it served as an additional reminder (additional because I don't need to be reminded of this fact but this trip just blatantly showed me) that I am very much in love with this lady. Makes me laugh everytime you mention that you fear that I'd leave you. Funny cos its ridiculous for you to feel that way and at the same time, makes me fear that you'd leave me when I'm so vulnerable too.

So don't ok? Like I told you earlier, this trip made me want to make you permanently mine because what I've experienced from living with you from day to day for the past few days is like breathing the oxygen in the air. Essential, important, and at the same time allows me to enjoy what life has to offer, for without it, I'd die.

This trip would most definitely be a 180 degrees different from the one we just had if you weren't there.

2011-12-11T19:00:00.000+08:00

Click to enlarge

And thats right, I'm currently living the world's slackiest life ever! Everyday just nua around in front of the computer or tv, digging into snacks, and the occasional going out with friends etc. This is the life!

So I'll be leaving for Macau tmr, and I'm really really really hoping that everything goes well with STARs tmr. Plse plse plse. Even if sth screw up, I wouldn't know till I got access to any wireless which probably will only be available at night. Oh wait. The airport has wireless! I'd be able to know upon arrival if everything goes well! YES!

Hope everything goes well with her family too. I mean, its like exciting and awesome to go on a tour with her, but with her family around, there's the additional pressure. Like everything I do have to be extra careful. Starting with being on time tmr morning at the airport. Idiot tour agency said have to be there at 0430 sharp when the flight is at 0650 (I always reach the airport 1.5hrs before the flight. This is like 2hrs20mins earlier!). I bet we'd end up waiting around after checking in lor. But oh well, can't complain. Can only drag my sleepy ass down. It's critical cos I wouldn't want to make a bad impression. Gonna stick to this girl for life equates to sticking with her family. As the saying goes, you don't just marry the girl, you marry her family as well. So family here I come! :)

Gonna go send my brother to book in later and wrap up the day with a final check on my packed bags before sleeping way early.

Alarm: 0330hrs

Checked

Here goes nothing!

2011-12-11T18:18:00.002+08:00

WAHAHAHAHAH!

Click to enlarge! :)

2011-12-11T00:09:00.002+08:00

I had a really lovely evening cos girlfriend came to find me right from her Desaru trip. Dinner was so-so cos I wasn't really that hungry after that afternoon snack. And seriously, I feel damn unhealthy today. KFC for lunch, cup noodle for afternoon snack, and fried chicken briyani for dinner. zzz!

Anw I'm so glad she's back safely and in one piece! Plus in my arms somemore! and we're gg overseas in 2 days time!!! yay! Ok technically its 1 day's time! Double yay!!!

Alright dying of fatigue right now, so I'm going to bed.

Good night world

Good night Lynette

Love you

2011-12-10T18:02:00.002+08:00

Guess what?

You predicted when I'll check into your blog so accurately! hahaha! I did once last night before sleeping and another this morning and woah, I was quite surprised to see those posts. Quite because its not the first time your cheeky little mind is up to some rescheduling. hahaha!

I miss you so much! Finally you're back and I get to see you in like less than an hour's time!!!

Especially looking forward to the upcoming week!

2011-12-09T23:09:00.002+08:00

For like the first time since who knows when, I actually have no calls to look forward to tonight. It feels weird. It made me realize something, I've taken these calls for granted. Sometimes its fatigue, or other activities like mahjong that decreased my enthusiasm to call. But what I've forgotten, is that this whole calling thing, was actually what kickstarted us.

Now, I don't mean that just because it was the beginning, then it has to continue to the end, but I never did fully realize the importance of it and how my mind and body have adjusted and included it into my circadian rhythm until today.

Baby I'm really missing you right now. Yes, its like only 2 days and 1 night, but that doesn't stop me from missing you. Really looking forward to meeting you for dinner tmr! <3

2011-12-08T20:08:00.000+08:00

I have plenty of screenshots saved! And every now and then, I'd flip through my photo gallery and re-read them. And if I got access to a computer, I'd flip through your Facebook photos for the 6984723th time.

Funny how we were just talking about that earlier today.

Yay, just 3 more days till we meet at the airport!

Honestly,

I can't wait!

2011-12-08T15:58:00.002+08:00

Yup, I'm definitely in love.

We've been meeting every other day for a few hours this week. Short, but I couldn't be happier. I don't know whether you noticed, but that squeal/sigh/exclamation you give when you hug me tight, is the most adorable thing ever! It always ends up with me smiling broadly whenever I hear that.

And Christmas came early for me this year. Got a present from my baby girl already. THANK YOU!! :))

I love you!

2011-12-07T23:37:00.002+08:00

What a lazy day! Sat in front of the computer the entire time.

Initially my plan for today was to uhm, start off with computer games - lunch - gym - work on some movie project - zhiyu comes over to transfer movies - dinner - watch new movies - call her.

In the end it went something like...

computer - lunch - computer - gym - computer - transfer movies - computer - dinner - computer.

Yup, computer games became the interval activity. I had to force myself for the gym part. Dragged myself down to work abit on my arms before rushing home to my computer games.

Anw, she's going to have such a nice 2 weeks ahead of her. Envious! I get to share 1 of that 2 weeks, but I wish it could start now and last all the way! Why must i wait for 3 days before getting to see her again! Bummer. Nvm, I shall be entertained with my new shows. And I've got a video project to work on that I've yet to start on! Roar!

Baby's working over time today. Must be something major happened. I shall patiently wait till she's back home, all cleaned up and ready to sleep, before calling and asking her.

Missing her

Least I get to see her tmr morning!

2011-12-06T21:42:00.002+08:00

My love for you is a journey. Starting at forever, ending at never.

The first time you cried on my shoulder, and I told you that you scared me cos I thought you were thinking of letting go. What was your response? Ridiculous? How could you ever possibly think that that was an option?

Why do you think that I'd be any different? Why fear that I'd be over you just because you spoke your mind? Its practically impossible that I'd give you up just because you open yourself and tell me.

Our love is not that dense.

I know its difficult for you. And I know you're trying. So I'm not complaining. As much as I want our conflicts to be nonexistent, I know that its impossible and at the same time essential for us to grow, therefore I wouldn't want you be hide everything within and accumulate till you break down.

So I promise you, that this fear you have, is not going to happen. Most guys won't say this cos soon their girls will be nagging non stop over ridiculous trivial matters once they are use to opening up and being direct with their bfs. But I'm confident that you won't take this for granted and be unreasonable because you're different and want us to be perfect as much as I do.

I love you

2011-12-06T00:05:00.002+08:00

Its really a big problem for me. However, unlike other conventional problems that requires solving, this is one problem that I want to keep for good.

Don't think so much about today ok. Neither of us are at fault, so don't blame yourself that you could have prevented it by simply calling. Important thing is, we learn something from it, something from each other. I will see you real soon. I don't care if its just for a few hours. I'm satisfied. Feels like ages since I last saw and held you. Cravings need to be satisfied!

You're so sweet. Likewise, you're the only person who has the same power on me too. To turn my world upside down or inside out and the key to my heart.

I love how you can be so positive about everything after our phone call. Makes me feel really important in your heart. Have a good night sleep, sweet dreams, and wake up tmr feeling fine and happy as usual!

I love you!

2011-12-05T13:52:00.004+08:00

Finally caught the movie "Apple of my eye". The ending was argh but it was still good overall. Certain parts made me reflect and do some personal thinking. My fav part was when the girl was dating the fat guy and she look out and saw this couple quarreling. When the girl in that couple touched the guy's arm, he shrugged it off and her reaction moved me. I can totally imagine myself in that position and I made up my mind, that I'll never want her to feel that way, like the girl in that movie.

Also, it is true that guys can be childish at times regardless of our age. Sth that interest us or motivate us just cos of fun can blind us from seeing the love and care that you're trying to put across to us. (ok girls not being direct and expecting the guy to understand completely is a tad unreasonable too lol!) Like how the guy in the movie is unable to comprehend why the girl is so against him organizing and participating in the fighting competition, I will at times be unable to understand why you think or feel in certain ways and vice versa. The key to this, is communication.

Coincidently, an unpleasant situation happened today which I totally did not expect. I'm sorry you had to feel this way. I will try my best to be more sensitive in the future. 请原谅我。

I'm glad I decided to call you to clarify things in the end. But one thing is certain, regardless of whatsoever, I still love you no matter what, and I cannot bear to let you go.

2011-12-04T19:22:00.002+08:00

Even when you're feeling like a tomato, or being overly caring and picking on the little details to argue over, or feeling blue and not being yourself, I'll always love you, no matter what.

You can try to be demanding, I'll try my best to meet your demands. Esp during this period when its my holidays. I say, bring it on! If our love was meant to be restrictive and reserved, to be kept within ourselves so as to not trouble to other party every single time, then this isn't a true r/s built upon trust and communication. I am willing to do my best for you.

Lastly, get well soon! You have plenty of things to look forward to in the next couple of weeks!

I love you!

2011-12-03T19:31:00.002+08:00

I never every will.

Baby popped by today before heading off to meet her friends for dinner.

Short, but a really sweet and nice moment we shared together. Felt so nice and warm inside. Watching you walk away, up and across the bridge, was all I could do to make sure you were safe.

When I gave you my heart, I'm certain that you'd treat it well and love it with all your might. Likewise, when you gave me yours, I'm never gonna let it go. Trust me.

2011-12-03T12:04:00.002+08:00

I didn't mean that this was not what I signed up for when I said that!

It was just a shallow comment, stating an obvious fact. Rhetorical.

Never doubt my feelings for you.

If there was sth I said, and there were 2 ways to interpret it, it will always be the more positive one.

As we progress, I know more obstacles will stand in our way.

We will counter them. Regardless of what. That's my word for you.

And needless to say, on the other hand, we are gg to have more happy moments.

Not just in terms of frequency, but also in terms of level of happiness.

Lynette Lee,

I'm very much looking forward to our future tgt!

We shall

We will

Happy 4th month!

I love you!

2011-12-03T11:50:00.000+08:00

Just like a shoe, if a girl is meant for me, she'll just fit perfectly; no forcing, no struggling, no pain.

2011-12-02T22:24:00.002+08:00

Somehow, within me, I felt so happy, when I saw how others praised you of your beauty, elegance, or any fine characteristics. I feel proud actually and extremely satisfied that others agree with me.

One thing that I like and enjoy about us, is our photography story. I like how you would so willingly be my model, eager to try out the poses I have in mind, and how beautiful the photos turn out to be. Even candid shots, where I randomly snap, like the one with the big green giraffe. Beautiful!

I like how you doll up for me. And how beautiful you look even when you don't.

I like how you look at me, and I see the meaning behind those eyes, that reflects how I truly feel.

I like how you're so caring. Knowing that I don't exactly have a good memory, and making the effort to remind me of my daily stuff.

But most importantly, I like how you feel towards me, and how I feel towards you too.

I love you!

2011-12-02T08:38:00.002+08:00

My nose is completely block again. Will have to endure this for another 5-6 days before my next appointment and then it'll be clear.

Cold rainy morning. Its either rain or scorching hot weather for the past few weeks. Yet somehow the very rare times when it was cooling and cloudy, was the time we head out to the zoo. Miraculous!

Girlfriend is fast asleep in that peaceful pose right now. Missing her.

Hmm thought you might need a little help with my Xmas list, so here goes...

Fred Perry

More shoes

School backpack

iMac

haha, I'm just kidding

All i want for Christmas, is you!

2011-12-02T03:08:00.002+08:00

As I stood near TCT LT, discussing the answers to the final exams of HP1100 that just ended not too long ago, I glanced around, looking for you. When I did, my heart skipped a beat. Not just that, I felt proud. Damn proud, that you were mine. My only way of expressing it, was to firmly hold onto your waist as you came and stood alongside me.

Thats my girl, waking up early, travel from the East to the West, just to find me, her boyfriend, right after he finished his 1130 paper, to bring me out on a date.

Seriously, what more can I possibly ask for?!

Today, I realized that you meant so much to me. Please don't be in love with someone else. For you're mine. I have made plans for our happy ending. And all it takes, is for you to be by my side, just as I will be at yours.

I love you!

2011-12-02T00:50:00.002+08:00

Thank you for being the world to this one person. You just mean so much to me right now. I don't know. Could it be the consecutive 2 days we had together? Or that it'll be quite a few days before I get to see you again? Or the conversations we had the past few hours? Or the movie? Or even the little tiff we had, that made me feel so drastically affective!

Really love it when you cuddle up next to me and wrap me up in you. Feels so much like you're mine and vice versa. And the 2 dates you planned out single handedly. Wonderful. I really had a fantastic time. My only regret, is that it had to come to an end so quickly. You keep saying that you didn't put in much effort in planning for these 2 days. Baby, I saw you thinking so hard while planning the itinerary, even asking friends for opinions and scouting the place beforehand! And these are just the surface factors. I'm sure there are so much more that you did without my knowing. Maybe its nothing much to you, but I do see so much effort invested into it and I really do 100% appreciate it.

Baby love,

You're my world

2011-11-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

This picture always makes me laugh. Because thats exactly how people look like in similar situations.

Last paper in 10 hours time. Honestly I'm not as confident for this paper compared to the one I had this morning. Haiz. Hopefully everything goes well. Wouldn't want to spoil my mood after the awesome date afterwards.

Feeling the extreme fatigue right now. Gonna sleep straight away, wake up, quick final revision, and go to war.

Good night baby. Thank you for being so extremely supportive for the past few weeks. You were great. I know its been hard for you too. Got to go through 7 more of such exam period! I love you! See you real soon! :)

2011-11-29T19:24:00.002+08:00

It sure is.

All you, for making things so beautiful!

Finally, I fell asleep for about 2 hours. Heavenly. Last night was horror, tossing and turning around, watching the time pass from 11 all the way to 4 before my 7am alarm clock woke up, reminding me that its the start of my exams. Felt like a zombie as I made my way to the exam hall lor. So drained.

Luckily for me, it went well and I honestly feel that my efforts paid off. Give me another chance and I'd perform the same. Thats how fulfilling it felt. Went back to hall and tried to catch up on my sleep. Couldn't. Failed. Pathetic. Feeling extremely worried that I'd have problems falling asleep tonight again, I made the decision to go home. And I was right! Beauty sleep for 2 hours. Shiok.

I'm not really looking forward to moving back to school when the semester begin. Damn.

As for now, I'll do a final revision for my last paper, sleep and prepare to see my girl tmr AND the day after. Can't wait! Its been so super duper long la! Finally!

Really missing you alot!

2011-11-28T19:18:00.002+08:00

In the train on my way to school right now. Feeling a teeny bit sian cos despite spending so much time studying, the feeling of the possibility of forgetting or neglecting certain areas will always be there. Kinda reminded me of the train trips I took to CDA back during the NS recruit days. Down this very same track.

But then again, things are so different right now. Life is way better and I'm thankful every single day for her. She's another reason why I can smile so broadly now on this teeny bit sian train ride

2011-11-28T17:06:00.002+08:00

LOL!

2011-11-28T16:53:00.002+08:00

When I heard those words. Miss you. Like crazy. So much. Love. I couldn't help smiling. Not just because those are genuine sweet words that every guy wants to hear from the girl they love. But also because, you're helping me say the words that describes how I feel towards you. That being said, its quite ridiculous to be fearful and find it a ridiculous thing to say right? :)

Thanks to you

I didn't know

Never thought it was possible

to be able to fall so hard.

One more day to exams. Go go fighting!

2011-11-28T00:55:00.002+08:00

No questions asked.

To love is nothing..

To be loved is something..

To love and be loved is everything..

Baby you've provided me with this priceless context of 'everything'. Please don't take it away from me. I want you like crazy right now but life throws obstacles and they have to be overcome at various points in our lives and as easy as it sounds for me to tell you, I need to constantly convince myself the same thing twice as hard, that its just 3 more days before I get to see you and satisfy this urge and crave to be with you.

Love - a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person

Forever - without ever ending.

I love you forever. Period.

2011-11-26T22:03:00.002+08:00

Its the last lap. I'm so deprived of a life. Being a mugger/nerd is so not my cup of tea. I'm having cravings of all sorts. Even something as simple as being able to walk around with her.

Today marks the last day I spend over 7 hours sitting in Starbucks with a pile of notes in front of me this year. After today, it'll be home, hall, exam hall, FREEDOM!

Oh boy oh boy oh boy. The thought of what surprises awaits me on the 30th itself is keeping me on my toes! Anticipating! Plus another full day on the 1st! and just when I thought thats so much to look forward to already, I'm reminded that I have a Macau trip too! Wheee!

I'm missing her so badly. Roar! nvm, calling her in about an hour's time. Whoever invented the telephone is a genius. My life would be way too miserable right now if not for the telephone.

2011-11-26T18:01:00.002+08:00

Needless to say, that 'love to complete your life' is from me.

Sorry if I kept you waiting for posts. I know I'm a little behind on your daily dosage so I wanted to write a big nice impactful one. One that would not only make you smile, but also lift up your heart and mind. Seems like the post served it's purpose. Why delay? Because I wanted you to read it in the morning, when you're sleepy and preparing to start another day of work, and esp when you were not expecting one.

Just 4 more days! Fighting!

I love you baby!

2011-11-26T03:08:00.001+08:00

How do words from a certain website (*hint someone's sweet palour) never fail to stamp a smile across my face? Or lift up my spirits when I'm feeling depressed and demoralized? I don't know how you do it, but you always do.

As the dates draw nearer, more time is spent sitting at the dining table/Starbucks with notes strewed all over. Shoving as many jargons and terminologies as I can into this brain of mine. So glad for yesterday's off day. I need these off days actually. Especially when I started 3 weeks ago and only have 2 papers. Didn't want to let you out of my arms, but the day had to come to an end eventually. Just have to endure another 4 more days and I'd be having 2 consecutive days of love poured in abundance, all to myself.

Lynette Lee,

I am thankful each and everyday, for the fact that you came into my life. With you, I've experienced new heights of happiness and joy. As our journey together continues, especially through foreign steps that we've never taken before (i.e. the Macau trip), or times of predicament that might occur, I can't promise you that we won't ever fight, disagree or be in despair. We might occasionally stop walking, or even to the extent of taking a step backwards at times, but what I do know, is that our walk after which would always continue, with 2 steps forward, moving, progressively to our goal. For everything that has happened, and to happen in the near future, be it big or small, positive or negative, high or low, thick or thin, I promise you, that I'd love you, and never let your hand go (figuratively speaking of course).

Your boyfriend

Jasper Seah

2011-11-24T00:09:00.002+08:00

Its finally Thursday! Immense misses will all be worthwhile when I see her tmr!

Seriously my life these days has been dreadfully dull. Just one more week and I'll have my life back. Been longing for it so badly that my mind's been drifting off into the future. Making plans for events as near as the Macau trip and as far away as my wedding. Just pondering on what to pack is capable of causing physiological arousal. And according to the James-Lange theory of emotion, the stimulus (thinking what to pack) leads to the physiological arousal (increased heart rate) which leads to the emotion! (Excited) Gee what I learn is so applicable even though I'm almost sure she'll just skim through that portion.

Did an extra chapter just now so I'll have more time for her tmr. And she's going to bring the itinerary and my new phone case! yay!

Shall go sleep now so it'll just be a couple of hours before I see her when I regain consciousness.

Goodnight I love you k bye!

2011-11-22T22:18:00.003+08:00

I really don't know the capability of my brain. Studied at home on Monday, covered alot, but at the end of the day, felt as though I forgot everything. Certainly didn't feel any smarter and any attempt to recall facts absorbed earlier was met with a blank wall. However when I went through them again today with a clear morning mind, I could recall like 90% of what I went through the day before. Amazed myself. Yay me. The human brain certainly is unpredictable at times.

As for today, I'm feeling the exact same thing as last night. Felt as though I covered so much but totally unsure how much stayed in. Well, lets leave it to tmr to find out.

Jireh called and updated me abit on how the SCC (Section Commander Course) is coming along and how shiong it is. Really hope he makes it through and pass out with a nice fire badge along with high pay and rank. Just as he was done, Dad came home with my KFC supper. Having soup for dinner renders a compulsory supper with all the fast quick digestion. Dug in and am currently feeling satisfied and happy.

Baby had a nice day as well and that contributed to my happiness factor. Apparently her colleagues complimented her on her new hair, along with the settlement of my inclusion into the tour package and her new iphone 4Gs. Can totally imagine me in that ecstatic state being in such a situation.

Everything's been copacetic, the tour, our dates, plans, life in general, her, me, the tour again, it'll just be ludicrous if my exams didn't follow suit.

As for now, it's time to call my girl.

2011-11-21T23:47:00.002+08:00

The me you have been experiencing, the moody, dislike so many ppl, full of complaints me, along with the laughing, teasing and loving you me, is definitely not a facade, but the real me.

I may have said this before, but I really am at ease, to be 100% completely myself in front of you, for I know that you'll still love me, for who I am, just like how I love you for who you are too. And also partly an excuse so I get to hear those nice comforting words from that sweet voice of yours.

Thanks to all the wedding video inspiration, which led to so much mental effort spent on creating and planning my very own, I think I've came up with a nice concrete plan for the proposal. Next up, the ceremony.

I love you baby. Sleep early and wake up in time for your 9am class tmr!

2011-11-21T00:51:00.001+08:00

And those smiles made me so happy today.

A perfect off day, something I am so in need of after a whole week of mugging and another mug week coming right up. All thanks to her, I had one of the most happiest days ever.

Ok so the beginning wasn't that well thanks to some arrogant b**** that I've lost all patience for to the extent where I'd snap without hesitation when she spills inappropriate stuff esp when its directed towards me.

After the lunch was way better. Caught the movie Tintin, followed by dinner and then back home. Sounds simple? Its way more than that. The moments that we spent together, so <3 every part of it. Feels like our own little bubble where the world revolves around us. Nothing else matters.

Was really quite sian towards the end as I started visualizing the upcoming days ahead where I will be spent buried in my books and notes with no sign of my baby around. Roar! Must endure and pull through. Just slightly more than 1 week only! I can do it!

45mins after she've left and I'm missing her so badly already. Oh gawd!

Baby, I won't let you down. *winks*

I love you

2011-11-20T00:19:00.002+08:00

After watching those wedding film clips, I'm so inspired to reach that stage! The emotional moments, the funny times, the serious commitment, and the path that we're taking now that leads to that. I must say, we're moving along the right track!

Like what the image above said, I want you, forever, you and me, every day. Unfortunately, this second part of the want cannot be fulfilled... YET. Due to our daily life in hectic Singapore. Where being a student or a part of the workforce drains your everyday life away, I'd say I'll have you everyday in time to come. Right now, I can only desire, crave and treasure the days that we get to spend time together.

Time is running short as the exam dates draw near. Patience wears thin and certain days seem bleak and gloomy. But, always, regardless of positive or negative moments, I'm happy and satisfied for one very simple reason

because I have you

2011-11-19T00:30:00.002+08:00

As much as I didn't say or expressed it, deep down, I really sincerely wish that you could be here with me, every moment throughout the day, this thought, this desire never fail to leave my mind.

Been really pressing myself to study. Its been over 3 years since I last spent so much brain energy and concentration. The last few days, albeit boring, flew by so fast that a small part of me is starting to worry that I won't be able to make it in time! Will next semester be worse with 3 or more papers?!

That phone call reminded me once again how much I love her. Was smiling throughout. So cute. So adorable. Even when I know she's trying to hide. What some guy who set the tripod that you can't rmb. Or no inclination to expressing how much you miss me. Knowing that you were indirectly referring to me and that you missed me so much.

I'm sorry if I've neglected you in some way for the past few days k? Been really using up all my mental energy to focus on absorbing the terms and theories. I do look forward to every night's phone call where I get to converse with you, to hear your voice, to express how I feel about the day, myself and towards you. To smile, laugh and feel elated because of you. To motivate me for the next day's challenge in absorbing even more stuff. and needless to say, to hear and know and at the same time tell you that I love you.

我很想你！

2011-11-18T17:15:00.002+08:00

Remember this ok? For I'm the 'He' mentioned above.

Short post for now, rushing off to Bukit Panjang for dinner! Missing her!

Loves

2011-11-17T22:31:00.002+08:00

erm, Rawr! Rawr Rawr!!

12hrs of studying? I still can't believe I did it. And I don't even feel exhausted or drained. Ok maybe its not intensive enough. Next 3 days will be far less intensive compared to today though. Dinner tmr, meeting on Saturday and dating on Sunday. Followed by a whole week of consecutive intensive studying. The last week before the finals occur.

Browsed through my photo archive and oh boy, I really am in need of a vacation. Miss the carefree days back then when all I have to worry was making plans for the next few days so that I won't be bored and stuck at home. But back then I didn't have her. And I admit, having her in my life brings a whole new level of jubilation. Maybe thats the reason why I don't feel exhausted after the whole day of studying up.

Looking forward to Sunday!

Love you baby!

2011-11-17T09:45:00.002+08:00

Yep! Even in times like this, the dullest, most boring no-life period, spent in the world of notes and books, away from social interaction. aka Exam Period. I still smile at every call, text, apps, and even the mere thought of you.

Gonna go back to the books for now. In the mean time, missing you. Think you fell back asleep though.

Loves!

2011-11-16T23:03:00.002+08:00

I really can't believe how I made it through today. 6 hours of stats and another 2 hours of psych?! I don't even know how much stayed in there at the end of the day because of the amount of content that was covered. Ok maybe not alot of content, but deep ones!

I know that she being on my mind all the time might sound distracting, but on the contrary, it motivated me. Other than the exciting dates she has planned for post-exam period, she is very much certainly the one who's going to watch me acquire my qualifications and walk with me through life. Doing well in a semester's final exam is like the least I could do on my part as her guy.

Oh and baby, can we try ALL the pancakes listed there? Looking at the pictures are making me drool!

2011-11-15T20:48:00.002+08:00

I didn't bother dressing up. I was in an attire like how I'd normally dress and look when I spend the whole day at home. specs, unstyled hair, typical home clothes. Now I'd be home too, except that she was coming over. That smile on her face when she saw me around the corner of the condo perimeter reminded me that I didn't have to be insecure of whatever physical features that I lack.

I can very well be myself and tune into completely comfortable relaxed heck-care mode and know that she still finds me amazing, for thats how I feel towards her as well.

Fruitful studying today. Saw how time flew by as we worked together to complete 2 chapters of stats. Am considering whether to get a job for my December break. Not sure if I'd want to commit myself to a routine 9am-6pm office job for 4 weeks... Then again, I do need to be occupied during the break and some extra pocket money would be nice. hmmmm!

I miss her alot!

2011-11-14T11:34:00.002+08:00

Happy moments.

Been doing so much reading recently. My eyes feel like they're going to pop anytime.

Love pancakes, durian puffs/pancake, strawberry ice-cream, roller-coasters, badminton, photography, xiaokailan, nerfs, dogs, shades, friends, travel, sashimi, HIMYM, apple products...

and of course

Lynette Lee

2011-11-13T22:44:00.002+08:00

You make me happy, when skies are gray

You'll never know dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away!

Quite a productive day for both work and play. Badminton in the morning, and mugging in the afternoon. Library was packed! So we studied at the adjacent Starbucks. Time flies when you're concentrating.

And I'm so happy right now. Because I have an off day tmr with baby before the rest of the days are spent draining my life into books and notes. So much for psychology, the study of the brain. LOL

I guess my love language is really words of affection. I've been feeling so elated for the last couple of days all thanks to her. I'd like our r/s to be one where we share our feelings on whatever whenever. Hiding nothing from each other.

Gonna see ya real soon!

2011-11-12T18:27:00.002+08:00

After 7 hours, I'm finally on the train back home, project completed and the remaining 17-18 days can be spent on mugging for finals.

When two people care about each other, they'll always look for a way to be together. I guess that explains why our plans always happen everything seems to fall into place.

2011-11-12T09:56:00.002+08:00

I've been so busy the last few days that I haven't even had the time to blog. So here I am now, blogging on the train otw to school to chiong project. It's my first time doing this (train blogging, not project) and I guess that's not surprising since I never had the need to do so previously.

I had one of those sian moments again last night. It's funny and ironic cos the project that I'm chionging now is the correlation between meaning in life and optimism and here I was trying to figure out why I was feeling so shitty. Verdict- when I've had an insane day that started at 8 in the morning and ended only at 11pm with a common test and project work that is still not complete and needing to come back to sch again the next day which is a saturday to work on it, top with a very small dinner portion, the hungry, exhausted, drained, sticky me with a load of baggage to bring home from hall tend to start thinking of the very bleak future, hence finding little meaning in life which leads to low optimism. Which explains the shitty sian mood.

Needless to say, I felt way better after downing a burger and having bath. Of course, the call with her made it even better. I'm just really thankful for having her in my life. To be there when I'm at my lowest and does her best to support me up. She doesnt have to do much. Just her voice or presence is highly effective and that's what keeps me going.

You're still asleep now. Really looking forward to Monday. That break is much needed. And baby, please be patient with me for the next 2 weeks k? I may get cranky when things don't go well and the exams just keep drawing nearer, plus the fact that I won't get to spend as much time with you.

But, I'll do my best! Always rmb, I love you!

2011-11-10T23:19:00.002+08:00

With that, it is my choice to stay in love with you through thick and thin. And my promise to put in as much effort as I can to make us work. Simply because, you're worth it and I love you.

I have a quiz tomorrow and only had the time to really start preparing for it a few days ago thanks to all the projects, classes and readings. She came all the way down from the other end of Singapore just to keep me company and I had no idea her presence had such a great impact. Coincidentally I had a clash with my group mates (again) during class and was in a rather foul mood on my way back to hall. However, upon seeing her at the bus stop, I couldn't help smiling and everything suddenly seemed better.

Some might say that the day we had together today was boring and a waste of time. Me studying and her sitting a meter away reading a magazine for the bulk of time we spent together. However, I felt so at ease and happy. It's like a normal me without the missing and craving her part for every now and then, I'd look up and see the person I love sitting so nearby and that kind of plays a part in inspiring me, heightening my mood and being more productive in absorbing the notes. Like what she wrote, sitting next to you, doing absolutely nothing is everything to me. I feel the same way too baby.

Her post today plastered a smile on my face. Its so nice to know that there is someone out there who feels so strongly, positively and lovingly towards you. Better still, you feel the same way towards her.

Lynette Lee, I love you! Looking forward to the days we'll be spending together in the future. Esp once these blasted exams are over and done with!

Happy 100th Day!

2011-11-09T22:14:00.003+08:00

This is the message that I want to tell you. Love always wins.

I have a problem with getting close with friends.

Not the normal casual friends kind of friend. But a step closer. Friends that I hang out with daily or on a frequent basis. Friends that I feel so comfortable to be with that I can pour my heart out to them, knowing that they understand and at the same time trust that they keep it between us.

Thing is, after the initial facade, I see the flaws. The closer we get, the bigger these flaws are. Could be anything that has the potential of annoying me. Being slow, weak, poor in any area that is a burden to me, big ego, big mouth, arrogant, whatever you name it. Its not that I am a perfectionist when I come to friends. Its just that a certain form of expectation is built up when you cross the line from a normal friend to a friend that means something to me. And because we are close, I am at ease at letting my emotions run loose and I become especially frank and direct.

The people who cross this second stage, become true close friends that I treasure and the friendship that we share last for years. I guess it requires some form of similarity that allow us to clique so well. To date, I can only think of a few who I can label as my close friends... Karen, Daniel, Shanice... Ppl whom I don't feel annoyed with even after high frequency of interaction.

Why do I have to bring this up? Cos recently for some reason, I've been getting pretty annoyed. Not something positive. I'm actually looking forward to the holidays where I get to distant myself abit and start afresh when school reopens. I know it sounds so negative, but I guess thats part of my personality.

And also, the fact that Lynette doesn't make me feel annoyed, that I seem to have a tremendous amount of patience and soft heartedness for her, just reminds me how much I love and treasure her. Its not that the love blinded my sight. I see the flaws, but I am able to accept them knowingly and with ease.

I love you so so so much! <3

2011-11-07T20:24:00.002+08:00

you you you!

Coincidence that we both feel the same way? Missing each other so very much even though we just met yesterday. I don't think so. Its an indication of how we feel towards each other. I wish this exam period would pass by quickly so that my mind doesn't have to be focused on something other than her.

I'm done with my assignments. All I'm left with are readings. So much readings. Readings that can cause me to doze off despite the hot mid afternoon sun with over 10hours of sleep the night before. Damn.

Main priority right now is that 10% quiz on Friday for Cultural Intelligence. Yes, I know what you're thinking. 10%? Cultural Intelligence? Seriously? Does that require so much effort? Sadly yes. After the previous 10% quiz that I screwed up. So I'm dedicating Wednesday night and Thursday fully to studying this. As for the rest of tonight and tmr night, I'm going to try to complete my readings for Wednesday's lecture.

back to the topic on her.

I really do miss her so dearly.

2011-11-07T17:22:00.002+08:00

The only word that can fully describe how I feel towards you.

A day of fun, a day of work, followed by a day of fun again.

Unfortunately, today is a day of work. My checklist had 7 items and right now its down to just 2 so I'm feeling quite proud of myself.

As for tmr, there's only two items on my checklist. Going for my brother's enlistment, and meeting her for yet another awesome date! Super looking forward to meeting her, hugging her, and holding her hands in mine.

I love you baby!

2011-11-06T00:41:00.002+08:00

Apart from all the formulas and statistics, I learnt that I really do love you dearly and would do my best to avoid the stage from comfortable to tolerance. Instead, I'll put in the effort in making things work, knowing that you would do your part as well.

I know its like still so early, and we have a long way in front of us. But from the looks of how the past few months have been, I'm confident that we will grow strongly together. Through our own various commitments in school, work and friends, having each other is like a bonus that I don't ever want to lose. This month is going to go by real quickly, majority of the time spent studying for the finals. And next month will be spent mostly on you, making full use of the holidays. Next up would be the start of a new semester, and thats where a repetition of the last 3 months will occur. Soon enough, if ever I go for exchange, I know that when I get back, we'll not only be closer, but deeper in love.

I'm not saying that there won't be downfalls, quarrels or disappointments. I'm saying that even such setbacks are part of us taking a bigger step together, and all this is possible, because I love you.

I'll be seeing you in a bit. Good night!

2011-11-05T00:33:00.001+08:00

Our CQ project bloopers clip.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tApaaTblOzI&feature=share

2011-11-04T22:27:00.002+08:00

*HUGS!!!*

Crazy Friday is finally over! Long day rushing around from class, to project meeting, and to presentation.

A great weekend ahead! Ok maybe not so great compared to previous weekends. Going to have a group study tmr followed by half a day with baby on Sunday and then god grandma's bday dinner.

Next week has quite a few datelines for me. A quiz, a reflection essay, and a project work. Luckily Monday is a public holiday, shall make full use of that day to get stuff done.

It feels like we've been together for so long! Even more so with all the recent 'conflicts' that we had. I really value each and everyone of them as a lesson learnt. Really looking forward to Sunday and then Tuesday! I wish these 3 weeks will quickly pass by, so I can spend every off day with her and more on lunch dates!

I miss you baby!

2011-11-04T01:03:00.002+08:00

It's my fault for neglecting the time. I didn't know you were waiting and in such an uncomfortable position too. Didn't expect it to be like that, and I know that if it were me, I'd be pissed cos my patience isn't that deep.

I'm sorry baby and I love you. Please don't ache or feel bad.

I just want you to be happy...

I really do

2011-11-03T21:03:00.002+08:00

My girlfriend, who's my best friend. I sure do love you!

Was pleasantly surprised early in the morning. Shortly after waking up, finished washing up, and halfway through my cornflakes, she texted me saying 'Baby will you open the door? :)' Aww! Went to open the door in my sleepy just-woke-up mode and there she was, standing, beautiful, and smiling so happily! It's like seeing an angel in black carrying 2 bags.

A lovely morning followed, spending time with her, watching a couple of episodes from BBT and HIMYM before going to Can 1 for lunch. Too soon, she had to go. Was already missing her before she left! Damn!

Went to work on my CQ project after till about 7+ before the day's done and I'm back in hall practicing for tmr's presentation. Go me!

Looking forward to Sunday! A full day with baby!

2011-11-03T01:26:00.002+08:00

Today didn't go off too well. Busy like siao and a couple of things I'd rather not happen happened. But I'm sure that from today, I've learnt lessons and shall do my best not to repeat the mistakes.

Tmr is a day that I'm confident will be a good one. It can't and will not be bad. I will not allow that to happen. Baby's coming. And yup, after 4-5 months since she came into my life and this blog, I've mentioned her name loud and clear for the first and second time.

Lynette Lee you're the best I can ever ask for.

You're mine!

2011-11-03T01:11:00.001+08:00

I love you so much Lynette Lee.

Happy 3rd month! Many many more to come! <3

2011-11-02T09:27:00.002+08:00

Talk about holding gazes, I vividly remember the time at the Marymount bus stop and we had a mini competition on who could hold the gaze longer and not look away. Needless to say, I won. And in the mrt, where you refused to stand against the glass panel next to the door cos I would have the opportunity to decrease the proximity between us.

Now, I think if that mini competition were to take place, it would probably be a big one which will probably last the whole day, and we stand against the glass all the time.

I'm glad that you took it well and your effort in trying to understand is greatly appreciated. I know its not easy, but I do know that there will be more of such times for the both of us and we just have to know that if we face it together, nothing shall stand in our way!

2011-11-01T09:43:00.002+08:00

In about an hour, I'll be face to face with her! Finally! Yesterday was too harsh for me. The classes, returned assignments, presentation, rushing project, packing goodie bags... All in one day! How did I even do it?! I remember rushing around school like crazy all the time, visiting the free access lab like over 3 times in a day!

I've decided, to be myself. To do things the way I've been doing them for the past few years of my life. Enjoying what I'm doing and not just thriving for results alone bitterly. Ultimately, I just want to be happy.

Alrighty, with this, I'm off to meet her! Contrary to yesterday, today's a full day of fun! Woot!

2011-10-30T20:03:00.002+08:00

Everything, everywhere, everytime. As long as I'm in your mind!

Boring Sunday. And my mind is currently on how the week is going to be. Tuesday especially. Should I come back home on Monday? Or should I just travel out from school. Argh! And there are 2 presentations this week, which means I have to bring slightly more formal clothes.

What a pain!

I wanna call you so badly right now, but you're working so I guess I'll have to wait another couple of hours. hmm, or should I just go straight to hall tonight. bummer this is killing too many brain cells.

2011-10-30T13:19:00.002+08:00

Click picture to enlarge.

I'm glad this won't exactly happen to us. Cos we'll talk about it. Esp me, I'd be blurting it out to you like straight after it happened.

I still remember the first time I called you to rant. and you were pleasantly surprised. haha! I'm loving how our story has developed and am truly looking forward to seeing how it carries on from here.

2011-10-30T01:05:00.002+08:00

What a fantastic day!

Woke up early to catch a movie with baby who came all the way from Tampines early in the morning. Got to give her credit for her effort in that. The movie had like 4 viewers including the both of us. Spent more time staring at her than the screen though.

Headed home and caught another movie, X-Men Origins before heading out for dinner at Dian Xiao Er and then to USS. Took fantastic pictures there. Shall wait for it to be uploaded.

Super exhausted right now but thoroughly satisfied with the day. What more could I ask for, quality time with her. Next up, Tuesday. Got to plan that day's itinerary soon. Not sure whether to go home or town. hmmm...

Here's the day ahead. Gonna practice my nano presentation, improve my CQ presentation, and needless to say, miss her every minute and every second...

I love you baby!

2011-10-29T01:22:00.003+08:00

Despite the busy schedule in school today, you were on my mind most of the time.

For the first time, I woke up on a Friday morning from home and made my way to school for my 0930 lecture on stats (bah! I know!). Surprisingly, I realize how exceptionally near it was. Like I woke up at 7.30am, got out of the house at about 8.25am, reached Jurong East Interchange at 8.45am, boarded 179 and reached my LT slightly before 9.30am! Awesome!

Lecture was intense as usual. This module is all about formulas and stuff so I guess I'm going to be needing alot of practice. Had a nice chit chat session with my lecture mates till it was time for my next class. I realize that next week, I have like 2 presentations. Monday and Friday. After which, a CA would follow up the following Friday and it'll more or less be study break and finally Final Exams. How fast is that? A whole semester done.

Stayed back after class for an hour to work on our preparation for our presentation next week. Had to leave early at 7pm and I walked as fast as my legs could carry me back to hall where I had dinner before leaving with the bus to Esplanade to catch the stand up comedy, Kings and Queens of Comedy Asia 2.

Really damn funny at some parts. It was like almost 3 hours long and by the time the whole thing finished, it was like already 11.50pm. Made my decision not to hang out cos I really didn't want to take another midnight fare cab home from town, plus I have a morning date early tmr so once again I walked as fast as my legs could carry me from Esplanade, all the way to City Hall Interchange where I was so relief to see that the last train to Kranji is still available.

Stood there waiting for quite some time. 6mins for the last train and 6mins on a normal approaching train seems so different. The countdown for the last train seemed really long! Grabbed a Double cheese burger at cwp's MacDonald before walking home.

When I was like halfway home, it started to rain! I was like UH OH! But I didn't really had a choice so I ran! Shortly after I got home, the rain came down heavily!

Missing her so bad. I keep thinking of yesterday's conversation and I cannot further emphasize how much I love her. When I see other couples, I see her. When I see anything related to love, even jokes from the comedians, I see her. There's really no one else that can replace that! Super looking forward to tmr where I get to spend the whole day, literally, from 10am all the way to the end of the day. I think I deserve this from all the agony of missing her.

And yep, a slightly longer post to update her on my day as we didn't have a chance to talk on the phone tonight. Also to keep her occupied while on her way here in the morning.

I love you baby!

2011-10-27T01:11:00.002+08:00

Life is wonderful, because of you.

The way you said 'I Love You' just before you drove off, was so super duper incredibly adorable!

Waiting for your text before heading off to sleep and waking up to see you real soon! Tmr is going to be exciting, esp when I plan to add more photos to our collection! :)

2011-10-26T17:59:00.003+08:00

You sure are. Its so strange how newly found songs are so applicable to how I feel at the moment.

Here's What Makes you Beautiful by One Direction

You're insecure,

Don't know what for,

You're turning heads when you walk through the door,

Don't need make-up,

To cover up,

Being the way that you are is enough,

Baby you light up my world like nobody else,

The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed,

But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell,

You don't know,

Oh oh,

You don't know you're beautiful,

If only you saw what I can see,

You'll understand why I want you so desperately,

Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe,

You don't know,

Oh oh,

You don't know you're beautiful,

Oh oh,

But that's what makes you beautiful

2011-10-26T01:54:00.002+08:00

Please do...

Sometimes I fear that you'd grow sick of wanting to do so...

Apart from the morning, not a very great day for me. Essentially 2 quarrels and foul mood for quite some part of the afternoon. There were a couple of times that I was on the verge of exploding, that would most definitely burn bridges that I still want to hold on to.

Dammit, this isn't me. Luckily my self control has improved and nothing went out of hand except maybe a darker face and a quieter me.

By the start of next week, most of the projects would be more or less done and I can start my revision. Final exams are so near I can practically smell it!

I can foresee, that there will be future 'lessons' for us both. Lessons that might increase in frequency and magnitude even. Nevertheless, I know I am capable and will definitely put in all my effort to decreasing the chances of such. I shall put in utmost effort to do so for this flame of ours, is not going to die!

2011-10-25T16:28:00.002+08:00

I really do.

Today was an important lesson to both of us. I have to take note of this. Nevertheless, I really enjoyed the date. She being so close, I really have nothing more to ask for. It felt perfect. Plus I don't think I'm going to shop like this anytime soon.

On a completely random note, drinking sth that melted after it froze is perfectly fine right?

Time for bball, please don't rain again and evaporation can speed up anot

2011-10-25T08:21:00.002+08:00

It's here! It's finally here! Tuesday! I've been waiting so long for this.

Definitely without a doubt, today, I'm happy!

I hope I'm not late though.

Thanks to Deepavali, I get to be off from Tuesday - Thursday, of which I get to see her for all 3 days!!! Woot! Honestly, what more can I ask for?

2011-10-24T09:24:00.001+08:00

A good happy start to a Monday morning. The rest of the day awaits...

She's still asleep!

2011-10-23T22:59:00.002+08:00

There are so many options in life. Most of which is unknown. The countless paths I could take that would determine my future. But I have no such worry of the unknown, cos all I need, is you!

You're so beautiful, but thats not why I love you

I'm not sure you know that the reason I love you is you, being you, just you.

Yeah the reason I love you is all that we've been through.

and thats why I love you.

- Avril Lavigne